I figured I could finally start this blog... Afterall I've been telling myself that I would for the past five months.. Wow, five months. I have no idea were time has gone. My life has totally changed, and I wouldn't change it for the world. Jacob my sweet little boy turned 5 months yesterday, and while I've also put this blog off, that has been the same case for baby food. I'm so nervous to start, the unknowns have totally made me a walking anxiety attack. For instance when I was pregnant.. I asked myself.. Would he cry all the time?? Would I ever get sleep? And most importantly would I be a good mom? Then when it was time to come home... Would he latch properly?? Would he get enough?? Would we have to switch to formula?? Would we make it?? Seriously??? Everyone told me breastfeeding is tough... "good luck" ahhhhh... I was a total mess, I'm sure you can imagine.. And gosh it didn't get easier.. Because Jacob didn't get enough milk, he became dehydrated, and feverish.. Which we didn't know until we could leave three days later..We seriously lived at Wolfons/ Baptist.. I couldn't have been more thankful for Aunt Lisa who brought us lunch/dinner several times cooked meals.. and even some Chic Fil A, and Loop milkshakes.. she also brought with her some much needed moral support (Thank you.. You have no idea how much it meant to Korey and I).. Then there was also Amie.. My sister inlaw who also helped so much, bringing us clothes, our tooth brushes, and even going back the same night for a few things we forgot.. (Thank you Amie) .., for three days.. Which seemed like an entirety.. But its over, and it was great to have good news.. Thanks everyone for all of your prayers..
Then it came time to move him from a two hour feeding schedule to three?? Would he do well? Oh my gosh... And then four hours... What a big change, what a great change.. And because of my Aunts, who both have little babies themselves were very helpful, and I couldn't imagine doing it without them both being a phone call away. :) Once Jacob started sleeping through the night I promised Korey that we would move him from our room into his bedroom.. Which was also extremly emotional, and scary for me.. I finally decided that we should move him, he'd been sleeping thru the night now for two weeks.. lol. He did okay, he was'nt sure about his mobile in the dark.. Which i don't think that i would be okay with it either..
Now.. It's time to start baby food, he seems hungry like he wishes he could have something more? Which I can't deprive him of the yummy tasting stuff forever.. I'm just so nervous, will he be ok? Is this going to be hard.. Here the questions come again.. What do I feed him?? How many times a day? Sippy cup time?? Agghhhhh... This mommy thing just doesn't seem to get any easier..
I'm very thankful to my family for helping me through some of these rough patches.. I couldn't imagine doing it alone.. The thought alone kills me. I'm mostly thankful for Korey, he's been my rock. There is no possible way I could do it without him.. Thank you everyone!!
Its now time to start this next milestone for Jacob.. Maybe even Korey and I too.. I can't believe how big he's getting..
